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by Andre on 22nd November 2007, 8:10 am
Hi, my name is Andre. I don't use a pseudo name as I have quite hiding quite some time ago. I am interested in the human aspect of life as I deal with different people with different issues. I have taken some courses in psychology, nothing too extravagant, just something to give me a leg up.
I guess I could start with that I was diagnosed with Klinefelter's Syndrome at the age of 22, a time that was very confusing for me because I found out that I thought differently than my counterparts. There was definitely something more than a males point of view, it was leaning towards what I thought as a female’s. That thought scared me because I was raised male and my family did not tolerate a whole lot of spatial thinking, let alone a non gendered thinking. I found that I had more compassion and empathy than most males, making me a sensitive sort. That was my undoing, I denied myself that freedom as it definitely did not fit into the norm I was accustomed to surrounding myself with.
Testosterone (T) was prescribed for me at a higher dose than my body could possibly digest so an extreme maleness emerged only to find that being aggressive and a constant horn toad was not the way I wanted to go. Relying totally on the Medical profession but finding no relief or respect, I counteracted my T intake with a street drug and found myself being totally addicted to both in a vicious circle. Much too much aggression came out of that, looking back, it was a waste of time and energy.
I met my wife approximately two years after my diagnosis and I was smitten with her. I told her of my infertility and the cause and it did not seem to faze her at the time. It did however rear it’s head when we wanted children through adoption. Nothing was as it seems as we found ourselves spiting the governmental system that claimed that we were not fit to become parents for the reason that we did not have any to begin with. Certainly our strong belief in a higher power brought us through those tough times and much praying had been done.
You know that expression “Be careful what you wish for, you will get it.” ? We wished for a child thinking that an outside source was the answer until my wife proclaimed that she was pregnant. We wandered around for two solid weeks in a state of shock, herself for finding that she had a life inside her and me for wondering whose bad joke this was. Indeed that little person in the making was mine, an extension of our union.
Definitely the pregnancy was not easy and there were times that it was thought that one, the other or both would be lost but we persevered, thinking positively with help. The story of my daughter’s pregnancy and consequent birth will be left for another time as it was not without it’s perils.
So we come to the here and now. I had quit drugs and T only to re-administer the latter though a different form and in a low dose. I am much happier this way. I would describe myself as a positive person because I know what can be lost in an instant so an appreciation of life and the people therein is most imperative.
I have a thirst for knowledge about different people and what they go through in their situations. I know a lot about being Klinefelter's , I am learning about other congenital gender variations as we have many things in common and what that really means, is up to all of us to discover. I presently have a site dedicated to that but sometimes I need more than my knowledge of people, I need another point of view. This is why I come here...to learn.
Teach me and maybe you will learn something in the process.
André
I guess I could start with that I was diagnosed with Klinefelter's Syndrome at the age of 22, a time that was very confusing for me because I found out that I thought differently than my counterparts. There was definitely something more than a males point of view, it was leaning towards what I thought as a female’s. That thought scared me because I was raised male and my family did not tolerate a whole lot of spatial thinking, let alone a non gendered thinking. I found that I had more compassion and empathy than most males, making me a sensitive sort. That was my undoing, I denied myself that freedom as it definitely did not fit into the norm I was accustomed to surrounding myself with.
Testosterone (T) was prescribed for me at a higher dose than my body could possibly digest so an extreme maleness emerged only to find that being aggressive and a constant horn toad was not the way I wanted to go. Relying totally on the Medical profession but finding no relief or respect, I counteracted my T intake with a street drug and found myself being totally addicted to both in a vicious circle. Much too much aggression came out of that, looking back, it was a waste of time and energy.
I met my wife approximately two years after my diagnosis and I was smitten with her. I told her of my infertility and the cause and it did not seem to faze her at the time. It did however rear it’s head when we wanted children through adoption. Nothing was as it seems as we found ourselves spiting the governmental system that claimed that we were not fit to become parents for the reason that we did not have any to begin with. Certainly our strong belief in a higher power brought us through those tough times and much praying had been done.
You know that expression “Be careful what you wish for, you will get it.” ? We wished for a child thinking that an outside source was the answer until my wife proclaimed that she was pregnant. We wandered around for two solid weeks in a state of shock, herself for finding that she had a life inside her and me for wondering whose bad joke this was. Indeed that little person in the making was mine, an extension of our union.
Definitely the pregnancy was not easy and there were times that it was thought that one, the other or both would be lost but we persevered, thinking positively with help. The story of my daughter’s pregnancy and consequent birth will be left for another time as it was not without it’s perils.
So we come to the here and now. I had quit drugs and T only to re-administer the latter though a different form and in a low dose. I am much happier this way. I would describe myself as a positive person because I know what can be lost in an instant so an appreciation of life and the people therein is most imperative.
I have a thirst for knowledge about different people and what they go through in their situations. I know a lot about being Klinefelter's , I am learning about other congenital gender variations as we have many things in common and what that really means, is up to all of us to discover. I presently have a site dedicated to that but sometimes I need more than my knowledge of people, I need another point of view. This is why I come here...to learn.
Teach me and maybe you will learn something in the process.
André
